Under Pressure

Well, it’s been a long time.

As to be expected, life started interfering with this little ol’ blog around a year ago. And when I say life, I mean the sheer amount of grading I was dealing with on a daily basis. And while I still have a whole lot of grading to deal with on a daily basis, I have managed to discover a slightly better work-life balance over the past year. I’ve figured out how to make time to read (for pleasure), to see friends on a regular basis, and to basically take some “me” time. (And, of course, I continue to have the time to watch the 130454234 shows I’m usually watching on a regular basis, which I always made time for. Priorities, y’all.)

Anyway, to get to the point, I’ve been feeling the urge to write lately. Ever since getting my MFA two years ago, this urge comes and goes in waves. Not being “required” to write for workshops anymore is a double-edged sword: on one hand, I don’t have to pressure myself to finish a story in time for others to read it. And then, on the other hand, I don’t have the pressure of needing to finish a story in time for others to read it…in other words, I have discovered that I seem to operate well under pressure. (Cue Queen.) This doesn’t come as too much of a shock, as most everything else in life that I consider myself successful in involves pressure in some way. I grade on a schedule because my students need their papers back. I run on a weekly basis in order to do well in whatever race I’ve signed myself up for (side note: I’ve noticed that running long races is probably the craziest thing I do). I even turned re-watching “Gilmore Girls” for the 1234983520954 time into a thing of pressure–I pushed myself to re-watch the whole series before attending the Gilmore Girls Fan Fest and by golly, I did it.

Anyway, the point of this post is to be open about my writing and how I find myself yearning to write. I find myself still creating characters and stories and listening to conversations around me for inspiration. However, when I sit down to actually put these ideas on paper (or rather, computer), I face a brick wall. The process breaks down. I don’t feel a sense of pressure; therefore, it becomes easy to continually put off something that is usually such a large part of my identity.

Last Fall, I had pretty much decided that my blogging days were over. Blogging was taking up a chunk of my time and not that many people were reading it, so what was the point? But now, as I harness this desire to write, I see that readership and receiving a million comments is not the point, especially when you are blogging because you love to write. So I’m hoping if I return to blogging, I’ll not only be writing, but perhaps find that sense of pressure that is apparently a necessary part of my writing process.
Plus, at least I’ll be writing in some capacity .

 

 

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Things That Amuse Me

To add to my post last week, Things I Wonder About, below are a few things that amuse me:

This is what my hair looks like now.
Haha. Just kidding.

My new Nicki Minaj nickname (due to my recent hair cut) is going strong.

People assume I will be awesome at Scramble with Friends just because I’m an “English person.” Tracing words as fast as you can has NOTHING to do with being an English person. It’s like my old TA Advisor, Missy, said: “When you go up to write on a chalkboard, you forget how to spell everything.” Apply the same mindset to Scramble with Friends.

I just received a rejection email from a magazine that started out with “Dear Writer.” I know generic notes are often used for rejections, but really? Writer? I guess part of it is complimentary, since I often don’t consider myself a writer, just a person who likes to write things. But STILL.

When people find out I write, they constantly give me story ideas or tell me “You should write about that.”

It's a t-shirt sorting party!

I went to Chick-fil-A yesterday in the university’s food court (taking a quick break from sorting 3,000+ Greek Week shirts and other Greek life associated things) and said I wanted a chicken sandwich and a Diet Dr. Pepper. One of the employees looked at me and said “A Chick-fil-A sandwich?” I should have said “No, a chicken sandwich from somewhere else with your label on it,” but I don’t think that fast.

I say “Knock on Wood” a lot. When I did the other night, Rahul said, “Wood is probably like, god, stop knocking on me all the time.”

And those are just a few things that amuse me.

Take a look at some photos from my recent trip to Cape Girardeau, Missouri.